Ache

Sometimes I ache for what I cannot have right now.  A longing for something to be given to me, but God has not yet deemed it to be the right time.

I ache to know. I want to know what my future is. What the next adventure is. I ache for wisdom on what decision I should make. I ache so much that sometimes I put myself in a tizzy of trying to figure out my life

I ache for others. I wish I knew how to take away pain. I don't just want to give a hug or try and find soothing words. I want to be superwoman.

I wished I ached more to know God. Just to let Him fill the void of uncertainty and longings. Has God really given me me all of these aches just so I would learn to know Him better? If I did not ache with fear and want would I really trust Him for everything?

If ache is what will make me fall hard into the arms of God then I want more and more. The aches of life will never go away, but the soothing faithfulness of God will always be near.