.so Unexpectedly

I didn't expect to start crying during chapel, but when it was announced that there was nothing more cancer treatments could do for the wife of one our of teachers the tears just fell.

They fell like all the times last fall when I sat down to check my e-mail and saw the words aunt, terminal cancer.

The tears feel when I saw those family pictures of my cousins taken at Thanksgiving time and before Christmas time the dad was dead with cancer.

I cry because I think of the loved ones standing close to a hospital bed set up in a living room watching their husband, father breath their last. I cry because of the one's who stand helplessly by as their loved one goes in enormous pain.

Unexpectedly I start crying in church because I am so thankful for the wonderful hope of Eternal life. Thankful for a God who never stops being faithful...a God who is always faithful.

So I cry sometimes and without shame because the God of all comfort knows why those tears fall. He knows better than human the pain of those tears.

Unexpectedly I sometimes cry, but comfort and faithfulness of God is always expected.